I typed a letter to my mom a while ago. I think it deserves a repeat showing here. It really portrays how I am feeling at the moment. Life has been an interesting, joyful but also very challenging time with a toddler and a baby.

Title: Love Letter
Dear Mom,
How do you do all that you do? They say when you have your first kid you really start to appreciate all that your mother did for you, you “get it”. Well they were right. It sounds so cliché but it’s so true! Your eyes are finally opened to what it really took to take care of and love someone to their best potential.
I know we didn’t see eye to eye most of the time and we see things in very different ways now. But I can appreciate this aspect of our relationship in the season of life I find myself in. I can also see how very much I am like you. And how I want to be like you.
You gave into you family more than I can even try to explain on paper. It’s just not possible. You are a living example of self-sacrifice and the love of Jesus.
We have no better person to look at than Christ. His whole life on earth was about others. He truly saw people and genuinely cared about their story. His very life was about serving and being there for others and saving them from the selfish life of sin.
Lets look at The book of Matthew. It says that Christ had great compassion (Matt 9:36) and that he blessed children (Matt 19:13). We also know that he listened to the woman at well and saw her for who she really was.(John 4:7-29) He also looked at the rich young ruler and loved him (Mark 10:21). If anyone could spend true authentic time with people and truly care and see them for who they were it was Christ.  It was personalized. It was individualized. What amazes me is that He saw us for who we were…sinners and still loved us! The authenticity and true care and service toward others is mind-boggling in a world and society that claims “me first, I’m worth it”. It is refreshing and raw in a way we very rarely get a glimpse of. But here is the kicker….

John 13:35
35 Your strong love for each other will prove to the world that you are my disciples.
“WE are to do this too…and even more so.
John 14:12
12 I assure you, most solemnly I tell you, if anyone steadfastly believes in Me, he will himself be able to do the things that I do; and he will do even greater things than these, because I go to the Father.

Mom, you loved us even when we weren’t lovable. You gave even when you had nothing left. You still do. You continue to love and give and pour out blessing on our lives. Praying and interceding for us daily.
I hope I can show Christ to my children. I hope they see Jesus in me. I hope they learn to be an example to the world as well. But if they don’t, I still will love them, I still will intercede for them in my prayers. Because that is what you did for me and that is what Christ did for us all!
Thank you Mom!
Your Loving Daughter

mistyped, misspelled but the next step

I love to write. I love to read a good story. I love to tell a good story. I love my journal. It is such a great place for me to be open and to write about the boring everyday stuff and to encourage myself to be better. I can pour over pages and pages of nothing but talking about changing diapers what I ate and how I feel. I can write fast and sloppy and not worry about typo’s. It is where I decided to push myself into blogging. It’s where I convinced myself to send in an article to a magazine (after five people proof read it). Still very scary.

I am not a good “typer”. With one good hand and really bad grammar my typing skills have put a damper on my writing skills. I can text faster than I can only requires one set of finger tips. I would much rather go back to pencil and paper. I feel at home there. I can erase. I can write 100x faster. But that is not where our world is and I must learn to adapt and grow. I must stretch myself. I must progress if I want to ever improve in this area and since I enjoy it so much, I better.

What is holding you back from taking those next steps to be a better version of yourself? For me I was using my typing skills and bad grammar as an excuse not to put my thoughts out there at all. I’m writing on excellence and I can’t even do it without fragmented sentences and typo’s galore! How could I start something like this doing that? But, when you are supposed to move, MOVE! Get out of your own way! The reality is I have poor grammar (that’s what spellcheck is for) I mistype all the time but, people can still grasp the ideas and concepts I am going for. I am not saying don’t work hard or just half do something, or get sloppy. However, I fear many of us are holding ourselves back, not because we don’t work hard. We are after all Americans! We are holding ourselves back more because we are afraid that putting ourselves out there and messing up. We will look uneducated, ignorant, and like fools. And maybe you will. Maybe I will too but at least I am there. Mis-typed and misspelled but doing the next thing. The next thing to improve and to be obedient to my heart. The next thing to encourage myself, my little circle of influence and the world.

The Encouragement for today:

“To leave a legacy that goes beyond accomplishment alone, a leader must devote himself to matters of the heart.You must invest in the health of your soul.” -Andy Stanley

How are you investing in the health of your heart? For me, it’s doing this…typing slowly and painfully away on things that are burning in my very core to share – even if it is bad grammar! (Which by the way I’m working on that too) Maybe you need to look into that play script, maybe you need to start that podcast or just speak in-front of a few groups. Maybe you need to throw out that business proposal and see what happens. Don’t let fear of being imperfect settle you before the next step. The next step could be perfection in the making.

Hello world!

This is my very first post on my new site here at WordPress. I had been having a really rough time with the server going down at my other site so I have packed up and moved to here! unfortunately, if you were hoping to get notes from my previous site /I have lost almost all of it!!!!

I will have new and refreshing points very soon so stay tuned and hang on while I work out the pages!

Happy reading!